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three passed fifteen and still awake, eyes rotten but my mind wouldn't care,

asking my self what i want, doubting my moves,telling my heart 'not to fall'

trust on my hand, about to be yours,

but not until i know the truth 

and the time'll answer it all

just because my hands surround you

doesn't mean my soul does agree

in case you're about to forget who i am

i'll remind you the strength of the eves

until you drop your pride on the ground

and insanity makes your head wear my heals

until you prove me that this isn't an obsession,

i will never step out from my guard circle

i won't dilute my vindication.

If i die....

If i died yesterday,

Did you regrets those nasty words you've said?

in your dream,

Did you expect me to be around your bed?

in your prayers,

Did you wish that i am not dead?

If i die tomorrow,

will you tell me do i look pretty today?

across the ocean,

will you swim to see me today?

beyond the sky,

will you jump into my arms today?

as if i'm dying right now,

are you going tell me that you never meant to hurt me,

are you gonna stay beside this small hospital bed whole afternoon,

holding my hands and keep on telling me that i am not just pretty,but i'm the prettiest girl you've ever met,

and when i close my eyes and start to fade away,will you say : 

"i loved you yesterday,i love you today, and i will love you for the rest of my life"

Alexander Pushkin

I loved you; even now I may confess,

Some embers of my love their fire retain,

But do not let it cause you more distress,

I do not want to sadden you again.

Hopeless and tongue-tied, yet I loved you dearly

With pangs the jealous and the timid know;

So tenderly I loved you, so sincerely,

I pray God grant another love you so.

"I pray God grant another love you so" such a sad line. 

its me talking to you,beautiful people.

here's my msg to you :

this post is dedicate to all my beautiful friends and readers :

whoever you are, boys,girls,straight,gays,bisexuals,transgenders,

just believe in your self that you're special...you really are.

and nobody else in this whole universe have any right to make you feel like you're not.

don't you let them.

regards,

S.

Every day is so wonderful
And suddenly it's hard to breathe
Now and then I get insecure
From all the pain, feel so ashamed

I am beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring me down
I am beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring me down, oh no
So don't you bring me down today

To all your friends you're delirious
So consumed in all your doom
Tryin' hard to fill the emptiness, the piece is gone
Left the puzzle undone, ain't that the way it is?

'Cause you are beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring you down, oh no
You are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring you down, oh no
So don't you bring me down today

No matter what we do
No matter what we do
(No matter what we say)
No matter what we say
(We're the song that's outta tune)
(Full of beautiful mistakes)

(And everywhere we go)
And everywhere we go
(The sun will always shine)
The sun will always, always shine!
(But tomorrow we might awake on the other side)

'Cause we are beautiful no matter what they say
Yes, words won't bring us down, oh no
We are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring us down, oh no
So don't you bring me down today
Don't you bring me down today
Don't you bring me down today

Beautiful-Christina Aguilera.

i believe, do you?

today is the first day of february and i got somethin' for you!

i believe that i should share it and i hope it will be an inspiration for ya'll,

enjoy... (:

I Believe…
That just because two people argue,
It doesn’t mean they don’t love each other.
And just because they don’t argue,
It doesn’t mean they do love each other.

I Believe…
That we don’t have to change friends if
We understand that friends change.

I Believe…
That no matter how good a friend is,
They’re going to hurt you every once in a while
And you must forgive them for that.

I Believe….
That it’s taking me a long time
To become the person I want to be.

I Believe…
That you should always leave loved ones with
Loving words. It may be the last time you see them.

I Believe….
That sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you’re down
Will be the ones to help you get back up.

I Believe…
That no matter how bad your heart is broken
The world doesn’t stop for your grief..

I Believe…
That the people you care about most in life
Are taken from you too soon.       


http://jmm.aaa.net.au/articles/25812.htm 

passado

a blast of early winter

when two stranger became one

for words sent by the screen

and laugh on each other scenes

was the oddity against the odd

followed by invisibly visage

i

you

and it.

but then,

met eyes were wrong

they inhibit

shall not hear

but thou listen

us expires and sallow

haunted sense of loss

me

my self

and i.

11.00pm

i don't believe in fate but i believe that something happen for a reason and for us to converge and be like this i'm sure God has plan for us,against all the bizarre things and fights i wanna be with you behind all my cranky acts i wanna be with you,horrid but we enjoy the game when we pretend to shake hands when the naked truth is we hold on each other shoulder

for one little secret we never tell and for two lone souls come together as one its mystery.

by Tanyo

For My Bestest Friend

Friendship is something to hold on to
But for me that's not the case
Cause I don't feel I need to keep
Something that can't be erased

I am sure of what I have
Cause with you I have no doubt
For what we've built, can't ever fail
It's what I care about

I find it hard to describe
This thing that we share
Especially when there's nothing else
That ever could compare

Others always know
That together we will be
For there can never be another
"Tani and Kerrie"

Those two words, known all over
Might as well be one
Cause without a Kerrie, there is no Tani
I'm sorry, it just can't be done

For you're the "U", and I'm the "S"
And forever that will be
Cause together we make "US", and so
YOU COMPLETE ME!!

so true yeah?

Don't be too confident when someone tells you that they love you, the real question is "until when"?. Because just like season, people change and so do feelings.


http://saveaplaceformeinyourheart.tumblr.com/post/1130375402/dont-be-too-confident-when-someone-tells-you-that-they

untitled

ini tanya ini jawab,
kesempatan.
cinta.
penantian.
hidup.
semangat.
satu.
bukan,ini dua.
harusnya dua.

senang.
sedih.
marah.
air mata senang
air mata sedih
air mata terharu.
air mata pasrah.
dua mata.
bukan,ini empat.
harusnya empat mata.

aku
dia
kamu
mereka
ini kita.
iya,ini harusnya kita.

selamat tinggal.

for my comrade of my broken book.

hey mister,

guess our book has no more pages to be written,
i thought this will be the best history book i will ever have
and you proved me i was wrong.
but its okay,'cus i know you and i will find a new blank page to be written of someday,
sooner or latter.
what i want you to know,
eventho this book isnt a fairy story but what happend inside is beautiful,
i gave the best idea for every piece chapter.
i spent most of my imagination to make the best story of the year.
tell you the truth, in the begining we started to write this book, i knew that it will end like this,
and if you do remember,i told you how doubt i am to keep on writing.
but you told me that no matter what,
you won't ever stop,
and its grew my hope, yes it did.
your words grew my hope.
But then,i know sometimes we cant realy guess where the wind will blow the broken leafs away,
so i guess,you forget about what uve said.
you stopped talking words,and my hope turned down low.
I think our story has the best feeling and complicated plot that made people keep on asking,
"How's your book gonna be?"
I always said,this book is alluring, so many emotions and romantic,
like living in the sky above,
so high and we forgot how high we've been fly.
but somehow,i dont know how that whirlwind wipe us away
,the rain was falling and we have no shelter to cover the raindrops,
our wings are broken cus of the twistter.
and we were about to fall to the ground.
Our book is wet, damaged and torn,
and the ink was fade away, we cant see the script anymore
cus every letter seems so blur.
We started to blame each other when the one that has to be blamed is no one but the wicked whirlwind.
It wasn't us, it was the whirlwind.
We shouldve prepared,we shouldve known.
Why we were not that strong? 
How do the wicked whirlwind won?
I thought our book has written by the best ink
the strongest feeling,
i thought nothing's gonna torn us apart,
not that whirlwind,not that rain,
i thought we were not gonna fall apart even our wings are broken.

But i guess,we should stop keep on wondering,
there's no turn back cus our book is too decayed to be seen.
but we do have choicess and you know what the choicess are,
when one day we know what to do,
give back those words and turn my hope high again.
until that time, lets create our own stories,
but not with another writter.
so,mister,
goodbye for now.

:)

reimus fledermause.

10 fakta tentang Reimus Fledermäuse .

1.Dia kelelawar kecil.

2.Dia menumpahkan otaknya ke lembar kuning merah untuk di baca manusia.

3.Dia 'mungkin' jatuh cinta sama salah satu manusia bodoh hari ini.

4.Dia terbang mencari manusia itu di saat manusia itu pergi ke pulau dan tenggelam.

5.Dia sangat seperti badut.

6.Dia berkata bahasa manusia yang terdengar begitu jauh dari keanggunan kelelawar jantan,tapi begitu menyiksa batin kemunafikan.

7.Dia tersenyum dengan mata tertutup.

8.Dia menuntun manusia yg tersesat di malam hari,berjalan sendiri menuju Salamore,lorong kematian,.

9.Dia tidak pernah berbicara pada manusia-manusia bodoh tentang perjalananya ke jurang kepahitan,tapi manusia tau dia  akan jatuh,dan berharap dia hinggap di tebing penantian.

10.Dia tidak tau,manusia itu berjalan ke tempat yg sama,hanya saja,matanya tertutup kain hitam,berharap kalau pada akhirnya ia jatuh,kelelawar itu menangkapnya,terbang,lalu menari di angkasa waktu langit menangis.

ada

ada kata tapi tak terucap
ada nafas tapi tak terhembus
ada suara tapi tak terdengar
apa tanya tapi tak terjawab
ada kemungkinan tapi tak terpasti
ada penantian tapi tak ada yang datang
ada pengharapan tapi tak ada perkabulan
ada lorong tapi tak berujung
ada jalan tapi tak bertanah
ada hati,tapi terbuang.

semua tidak pasti
semua sia-sia

10:10

pernah berjalan bingung,
kaki tak berhenti,
mata tak terarah
ada benci,kecewa dan kesakitan di setiap langkah.
mencoba membaca isyarat-isyarat sekitar
menerka rencana-rencana alam
membabi buta pikiran dengan pikiran
berhenti di tempat ramai,
dan kamu,sendirian.

ketika pulau itu tenggelam bersama dengan pikiran-pikiran kamu
seakan mata melihat kedalam cahaya yg mulai meredup
mereka datang, lalu pergi,karena apa?
karena kamu bilang,kamu mau sendiri.

lalu,orang-orang lain datang,
kali ini,ada dia.
tapi kamu tau,
yg membawa dia ksini,
bukan cinta,
tapi ketakutan-ketakutan.

lalu,dia dan kamu
berbalik,
seakan cerita itu,
berhenti.

setiap bunyi keempat
dalam satu penantian panjang
kamu mendesah
dia dengar,
tp yg dia dengar benci,
bukan kamu.

lalu?

puisi yg patah.

dia sakit,
lebih sakit daripada sakit sakit lain.
dia kesakitan,
lebih kesakitan daripada kesakitan kesakitan lain.
dia merasa perih,
lebih perih,perih yg ga perna dia rasa.
apa kamu tau?
peduli?
kalau ngga,
itu lebih sakit lagi.
kalau iya,
sini,kita berpelukan.

ada tapi di takuti,ada tapi tidak dihiraukan.

kematian itu sifatnya mutlak.

ada,tapi ga keliatan.
ada,tapi terasa jauh,
padahal ada disamping kita,
ada di sekeliling kita.

kematian itu ada,tapi ditakuti.
kenapa kematian begitu terdengar mengerikan?
apa karena itu sesuatu yg ngga bisa kita prediksi?
kenapa org begitu takut akan ssuatu yg ga bisa di tebak?
sekaligus penasaran,

kalo kehidupan uda di atur sedemikian rupa,
apa kematian juga?

apa orang-orang akan bersiap?
atau sebaliknya?
apa orang-orang sempet bilang maaf,
sebelom mereka pergi?
apa orang-orang sempet menuai kenangan,
sebelom mereka kehilangan?

kenapa orang begitu menolak membicarakan kematian,
tapi ga perna berenti mengeluh ttg khidupan?


apa sempet kita tersenyum sebelum kita mati?

orang-orang yg mendengar kematian rekanya,
lari-lari mengarungi lorong rumah sakit,
yg terasa jauh.padahal deket.
yg terasa asing,
asing,dingin,suasana yg belom perna dirasa sebelomnya,
tapi ketika sampe,
mereka cuman sempet melihat sebuah badan ditutup kain kavan,tertidur pulas.
pulas,
pulas,
dan ga bangun lagi.

apa itu yg akan terjadi sama diri kita?
belum sempet terucap kata pisah,
apa memang itu kematian?
perpisahan tanpa kata selamat tinggal?

apa kematian lebih absurd dr pada cinta?
lalu,apa yg terjadi kalau cinta itu sendiri yg mati?

lebih baik kematian itu membunuh saya,
daripada membunuh cinta saya,
lebih baik kamu bunuh saya
daripada cinta kamu ke saya mati.


apa kita sempet,tersenyum untuk orang yg kita sayang?
apa kita sempet,membuat org yg kta sayang tersenyum?

apa kita sempet,bilang sayang sebelom orang itu mati?
apa kita punya keberanian,untuk menghadapi kenyataan,
dia ga lama lagi disini?
kita ga lama lagi disini.

apa ada ucap kata terakhir yg ingin kita denger sblom kita mati?

kalau ada, apa?